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hundreds of lucid dreams. This sense of being awake within my subconscious mind was fascinating, and I had never been more passionate than in any other subject than this. It wasn't just something I could intellectually hypothesise about but something I could experience, feel and touch. Lucid dreaming captivated me, a possibility to escape this mundane world and do what I want in a world of my own with infinite possibilities, and that's just what I did; I went on to have hundreds of enjoyable and entertaining lucid dreams. I flew through worlds of my own imagination, and I spoke with my subconscious to better understand myself and my fears. I even practised the guitar while I was asleep. Nonetheless, I mistakingly treated lucid dreaming as a form of escapism, which was ultimately unsatisfying. As usual, I was still asking what the purpose behind all of this was. I enjoyed it for some time and learned many things about myself, but back then, I was still somewhat depressed and unsatisfied about the world and life's meaning in general. Eventually, I became bored with lucid dreaming. I asked myself, "What was the point in experiencing life if all that I ever experience is in my mind?", this question didn't just address my dreams, but also my waking life because, through lucid dreaming, I came to the realisation that everything we see, even when awake, is only a reflection of our mind. When we see cars, trees and other people, etc., we usually see the labels and ideas in our mind that we attach to them. With this somewhat grim realisation of the 'virtualness' of life, I gained an interest in meditation as a way to find some hope and meaning behind it all. Later in life, I eventually graduated with a Philosophy degree. However, I was still mostly dissatisfied with what I had experienced academically. Western philosophy topics were interesting, but they were mainly explored with open-ended questions, deriving from unenlightened western philosophers,