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I have. And I think I know what the actual difference was. It was exactly as I had remembered it. Nothing had changed. I guess I expected some kind of progress. But what made me face it was the repetition. If you watched long enough, if you listened long enough, everything repeated itself. There’s no excitement, nothing new. That energy pattern ... you did not learn that from being human. No. That is why I left Home, the limiting factor of repetition. There was no growth, nothing new to learn or experience. You learn all the time in living on Earth—change and new learning go on constantly. But the fact that I can’t go back Home will take getting used to. It is not easy to handle. Yet you will adjust. Just as you will when you reach a point where you recognize that you can no longer return to being human. Perhaps it is better put that you not only cannot but you do not need to do so when you have outgrown what you call the human coat and glove. That will happen? That I won’t want to be human? How will I cope with that? When that point approaches, it will be easier than you can perceive as you are now. Well ... if you say so, I believe it to be so. You will know instead of merely believing, as you are fond of saying. Thank you for your help ... which is a weak way to put it ... We understand. You are welcome. The glowing figure began to fade and then winked out. My return to the physical was without incident. Things for me changed greatly after this meeting. I became aware of another, wider goal: to grow and evolve somehow into the awe- inspiring yet warm being that I happily called my INSPEC. With this desire and decision, I accepted the gentle encouragement that was being offered. The result was a strange mixture of peace and excitement, simple and complex at the same time, a form of knowing and belonging beyond description.