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(two husbands plus a number of love affairs). Add to this the fact that she was very tired. It took several minutes to get up enough courage to ask, but I had to know. My wife is fairly well indoctrinated by this time. I asked my wife to go up and ask J.F. if she was sexually "tired." She asked me what I meant, and I explained. Then, of course, she wanted to know why, and said that she could not ask J.F. such a question, I said I was sure she could find out, that it was important. Finally, she agreed and went upstairs to awaken J.F. I waited for a long time, and finally my wife came back downstairs alone. She looked at me intently. "How did you know?" Thank goodness she did not ask it suspiciously. She went on, "That's the reason she called and asked to come out. All week, she has been having a violent love affair, with sex every night. She told me she was just too tired to take another night of it." A short time later, J.F. came down for breakfast. My wife, of course, had not told her anything of my interest in her condition. She seemed her normal self for the rest of the day, with one exception. Ordinarily, J.F. treats me very casually as simply the husband of an old friend. Today I caught her staring at me intently again and again, as if she were trying to remember something about me but could not. 1 gave no indication that I noticed this sudden interest. This was fairly good identification. But who was the other, older woman? Aftermath: 3/7/61. It is now Wednesday night. During the past few days, I had tried to figure out what the older woman might signify. I had just about decided that it was a nonliving person still deeply attracted to physical sex relationships, who followed J.F. around just to enjoy vicariously the Matter's sexual activities—if this is possible. Then, yesterday, a friend dropped by the office. In the course of the conversation, he mentioned that a mutual friend, R.W., had stated that she had a dream about me the past Saturday night. At the mention of Saturday night, I was immediately alert. R.W. was a businesswoman in her forties. Although married, she definitely qualified as a woman of wide sexual experience, according to my own observations (but not participation}. R.W. had not described to our mutual friend the nature of the dream, so I decided to find out. I was finally able to reach vague about the dream content. At my gentle insistence, she stated that in the dream, I gave her a detailed "physical examination." Beyond that, she would not elaborate. Either she truly did not recall any more, or it was much too personal for her to relate to me. But the fact that she dreamed this on the same Saturday night, that it suggested some kind of intimacy and was important