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than the application of a law of physics at another level. Yet many tests consistently support this premise. The distillate of this conclusion did not come easily, as there were almost insurmountable barriers to overcome. The first of these was the conditioned responses set up and ingrained by the rules and taboos of our social structure. Initially, these were carried over into the Second State. Here is a good example from the notes. 9/16/59 Upon deciding to "see" I became aware of my position in the room. The office was dimly lit and I was above the table and some eight feet away from the couch, where I could make out my physical body half-visible in the dark. Then, near the door, I saw a form, certainly humanoid, moving toward me. Immediately, I "knew" that this person was female. I was still cautious, but I was fighting the sex urge, which was rising in spite of any self-will. "I am a woman." It seemed to be a low, woman's voice. I said that I knew she was, trying to hold back. The sexual overtones in her voice were unmistakable. She came even closer. My mind translated that she was indeed a woman, and the epitome of sexual attractiveness. I backed away, torn by desire and the fear of what might happen if I actually did have a sexual relationship while in the Second Body, and the possible "disloyalty" to my wife. Finally, my fear of possible unknown consequences overcame the desire, and I hastily dived back into the physical body, reassociated, and sat up. I looked around. The room was empty. The moment I thought about the event, my physical body reacted and became stimulated. I went outside for a walk before returning to make these notes. Maybe I am a coward! It took a number of these meetings at varying levels of intensity before I began to assess the "wrong" of it that held me back. There seemed to be a direct relationship between what I interpreted as the sexual drive and this "force" that permitted me to disassociate from the physical body. Was it a redirection of this basic drive that I actually felt as "vibrations?" Or was it the other way around? Was the sexual drive a physical and emotional manifestation of the force? Perhaps there is a way to examine this under very strictly controlled conditions—that is, if there is a society mature enough to undertake the experiments. Certainly ours is not. All that can be done here is to attempt to bring certain points under scrutiny. Recently, in scientific studies of dreams